Today’s guest post is by Kelsey Anderson. Kelsey is a wife and aspiring fiction author. She loves classic rock n roll, old cars and her cat. You can read her blog here and follow her on Twitter @kdmae.
There’s an invisible line that I’ve been needing to cross. Every writer, at some point, has to cross this line. Some will sprint over it, some will casually stroll across. But there are some, like me, who stand in front of that line, terrified to no end. What is over that line is possible criticism or high praise. Perhaps acclamation or ridicule. Maybe even some applause or boos. But you won’t know what you’re going to get until you finally step over that dang line.
I’ve been writing fiction for well over two years and since then, I’ve written thousands upon thousands of words. Words illustrating love, heartache, brokenness, risk, forgiveness and so on. It’s amazing how just a few simple words can bring so much life to a character or a scene.
But I have a confession to make: no one has ever read those thousands of words I’ve written. Not even my husband. It’s been only me. And that is the invisible line that I am so terrified to cross.
These characters and scenes that I spend hours writing are a part of me. They are the reason I spend most of my time on a computer, why I am sometimes super quiet, and also why I’ve been known to stop in the middle of a room with a spaced out look to my face. I put my heart and soul into every word that I put down, and letting someone read my stories is like letting them look inside my head. It’s hard to deal with that kind of exposure.
Honestly, it’s just my own insecurities that are preventing me from crossing over that line, I’m not denying it.
I’ve put my heart and soul into many things and shared them with the world, but only got scorn and ridicule as a result. But if I ever want to get better at writing and ultimately become a published author, eventually I’m going to have to tough it up and let people read my stuff, taking whatever response I get as a result.
I know that I’m not going to please every reader, all writers know that fact. I know that I’m going to get negative feedback, it’s unavoidable. I know that I’m possibly going to be ridiculed, might as well get used to it.
But writing is my true passion.
This is what God has called me to do with my life. It is my dream that someday people will love my characters just as much as I do. And it is extremely selfish of me to hold myself behind this stupid invisible line like a coward, because I’m fearing the criticism I know will come.
If I want my stories and characters to be known, I need to step over that line.
Here I go…
Have you faced this challenge as a writer? If so, can you encourage me in the comments as I cross this line? Thanks!